From the Diary of Any Woman...
December 17, 2005
The Way We Love Made the Difference...
Once again we’ve argued. We never would argue. It was never a part of who we are, but this time it feels different. Somehow, we seem stronger than we were before the argument began. Our love is strong, real, and meant to be. I feel it every time I’m with you. Last night, I was confused and so sure my suspicions were correct. I’ve never doubted you. I hate that sometimes now, doubt creeps within. But I know where it stems from. You see, I thought I was doing it all right. I thought I loved you just the way you wanted to be loved. That’s exactly what you did for me. I thought we had a reciprocal love between us including the way that we loved each other. Then, one day, when I was least expecting it, I found out you weren’t as happy as I thought you were. You felt crowded. You had desires to seek the company of someone else. When we were together, secretly, you just wanted space…needed space…required so much more space…away from me. That realization shook the foundation upon which I’d built what I call ‘us’. So now, I am doubtful…but it’s not in you…I guess when it all boils down to it…I doubt me.
I can’t help but wonder if now I call too much or do I want too much of your time? True, you did majority of the calling before we 'fell in love.' I took my cues from you. I really didn't think I called you any more than you called me. But I guess I must. I also wonder if when you’re talking to me, you’d really rather be talking to someone else. If the time you spend with me is really what you want to do or are you doing it just so I won’t feel you don’t want me. So my uncertainty forces me to ask questions. Only because I want to do it right, not because I don’t believe you. But my questions highly irritate you…make you think I’ve lost faith in you when nothing could be further from the truth.
But we’re so good together. We even fight differently than most couples do. Through anger and all those high-strung emotions, we can still laugh at each other to break the fury. And when it’s over, we can still find comfort in each other’s arms. The heat of the moment doesn’t rob us of our passion for each other and that is only because even though the foundation may have been shaken, it was never broken. You and I have a solid base upon which our love was established. Your needs are important to me just as my needs are important to you…we’re going to be ok. For that matter, we are ok…we’re more than ok…we’re damn good.
Signed,
Happily standing on the rock…
The Way We Love Made the Difference...
Once again we’ve argued. We never would argue. It was never a part of who we are, but this time it feels different. Somehow, we seem stronger than we were before the argument began. Our love is strong, real, and meant to be. I feel it every time I’m with you. Last night, I was confused and so sure my suspicions were correct. I’ve never doubted you. I hate that sometimes now, doubt creeps within. But I know where it stems from. You see, I thought I was doing it all right. I thought I loved you just the way you wanted to be loved. That’s exactly what you did for me. I thought we had a reciprocal love between us including the way that we loved each other. Then, one day, when I was least expecting it, I found out you weren’t as happy as I thought you were. You felt crowded. You had desires to seek the company of someone else. When we were together, secretly, you just wanted space…needed space…required so much more space…away from me. That realization shook the foundation upon which I’d built what I call ‘us’. So now, I am doubtful…but it’s not in you…I guess when it all boils down to it…I doubt me.
I can’t help but wonder if now I call too much or do I want too much of your time? True, you did majority of the calling before we 'fell in love.' I took my cues from you. I really didn't think I called you any more than you called me. But I guess I must. I also wonder if when you’re talking to me, you’d really rather be talking to someone else. If the time you spend with me is really what you want to do or are you doing it just so I won’t feel you don’t want me. So my uncertainty forces me to ask questions. Only because I want to do it right, not because I don’t believe you. But my questions highly irritate you…make you think I’ve lost faith in you when nothing could be further from the truth.
But we’re so good together. We even fight differently than most couples do. Through anger and all those high-strung emotions, we can still laugh at each other to break the fury. And when it’s over, we can still find comfort in each other’s arms. The heat of the moment doesn’t rob us of our passion for each other and that is only because even though the foundation may have been shaken, it was never broken. You and I have a solid base upon which our love was established. Your needs are important to me just as my needs are important to you…we’re going to be ok. For that matter, we are ok…we’re more than ok…we’re damn good.
Signed,
Happily standing on the rock…
posted by MsSkee at 10:18 AM
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